Homesick...

           I have to admit. I am not feeling so good lately. I've had this feelings since I came back to UPM last week. I knew I should be thankful for everything. I've been ignoring my sad feelings and trying to be positive since last week.


           But I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't pretend. I'm only human. I miss my home very much. I know everyone here has to go through the same thing. But I think of my family every single moment.


           I do not know why is this happening to me. It's the second semester already. I should be strong now. I know there are some students from Sabah or Sarawak are much less fortunate than me cause they couldn't even go back for the one week Chinese New Year break. 


          But right now I am so weak.


           I miss every single one,family, relatives and even my dogs. I wanted to go back during weekends. But my  mother asked me not to. As it's a long 6-hour-trip and I could just stay for a few days. No point going back. She is right.


          I do not know what to do. All I can do is to pray for me to be strong.


          One of the reasons I miss my family so much because I have the greatest family members ever. I love them very much. I've never realized that until I left home. They all are very nice to me. They are the greatest assets that God has given me. Like I said before, I'm not rich to have a big bungalow or drive a Porche, but I'm rich for the loving family that I have.


         I miss the moment we go out and drink coffee together.


         I miss the moment we have delicious dinners together.


         I miss the moment I sleep with my nieces, hug them, and kiss them.


          I miss the moment I overnight at my cousin's house.


          I miss the every single moment.


        


           I have a very special father. I have a very special relationship with him. For those who have seen the way I treated my father you will know what I mean.


          Most of my friends or relatives do not treat their fathers like the way I do.


          I always talk to my father rudely,scold him and even hit him. But all of these are in joking manner. Although I treat him that way, but in my heart, I respect him and love him. I'm concern about him a lot.


         All my relatives know our special father and daughter relationship. For a far-distant relative who come and visit us once in a while was shocked to see the way I talk to my father. She advised me to be nice to my father.


          My mother was there to reply :" Let them be, they are always like that. The father enjoys the daughter being rude to him."


         People might think that I'm a bad daughter. But as long as I know I am not, it's okay. Hahaha.


          My father has treated me very nicely since I was young. In other word, spoiled me.When my mother was there to scold me or punish me for doing something wrong, he will be there to comfort me, buy my stuff when I cry. He had never scolded me, unless for some times I was being too much. When my father gets mad and scolds me, I know I would know I am wrong. But this happens rarely.


          He is always there to joke with my crazily since I was young, tease me and give me all kinds of nicknames. He likes to make me scold him and hit him.


        Our way of communicating since I was young was, he would talk jokingly or crazily to me, and I would then shout and scold him.


        This sounds like I'm really a bad and disobedient daughter, but that is really the way our relationships is. He enjoys me shouting at him. Whenever I scold or being rude to him, he will smile and tease me more.


         Though I'm so old and big in size now, I would go and lie beside him on a same sofa just to make him feel uncomfortable. He is a very thin man. And everytime I do so, he would say :"Go away, go away, you want to kill me is it? Just like Smarties (our big dog at home) lying on Snoopy (our small dog at home). Snoopy will die!"


         Hahahaa, what a crazy father I have. I miss him so much.




          I really miss everyone in my family. I miss my youngest niece too. She's very cute. I used to feed her and bathe her. When I go for a sleepover at my cousin's house, we sleep together. Before sleeping, she would asked me to prepare milk for her. I would ask her to kiss me, and then I will make it. I feel I'm lucky when her small lips touch my cheek.


         In the morning, she would wake up early, and keep calling me, and ask me to bring her go swimming. She likes swimming. She is very excited when she wakes up, and keep trying to wake me up. Well, lazy me couldn't wake up early. But to see her exciting face, I couldn't let her down, I would wake up, and go swimming with her and her sister.




          How I miss all of my family so much. I can't wait to go back on semester break. 81 days to go. 


          I need to be strong, and do what I'm supposed to do. 


          Oh well, at least I have blogspot to express my feelings. :)

          May God help me to stay strong...

He was looking at the computer -.-

Malam Gong Xi Kolej Tun Perak 2011

          Before I start this post, I'd like to wish everyone who is reading this a Happy Chinese New Year!




         Okay, I shall begin.


          So last semester, right after the Pesta Tanglung KTP, my senior asked us to organised an event named Malam Gong Xi. At first, I was like "Kongsi night? A night that you share your things? Or kongsi gelap thingy?"
I was wrong. Gong Xi as in Gong Xi Fa Cai in Chinese. So, my seniors had a meeting asked us juniors to organised this event. 


             During the meeting, we had to pick the leaders for this event. My seniors had decided to let juniors to be the top 4, (The director, assistant of director, treasurer, secretary) as we had gain some experience during Pesta Tang Lung. So we have to suggest and vote for someone. And guess what? One of my beloved friends suggested me to be the director.


             When they were counting votes, I knew I couldn't do it. I was like, "Come on, me? A director for such a big event? Are you kidding or what?" I prayed to God, I told God that if God wants me to do this, then I will get it, but allow this event to be a success and allow me to be a good director, if not, please don't let me be the director at all. Just right after my prayer, I heard, "So our director for this event is Sherri Koh!!!"


              I didn't know I should be happy or sad. But since God wanted me to do this, I shall do it good.


              We were quite relaxed and had a great time until the beginning of this semester. By the time we realised, Malam Gong Xi is in 3 weeks time (25th of January). Quickly we began our work right after the holiday. For me, I was very stressful as the event got closer and closer. I was worried about practically every single groups. I told the protocol unit what should they do. I was worried about the publicity unit as I afraid we couldn't hit our target which is 600 people. I was worried about the carnival unit, we really need to estimate how much to sell, and we have to know how many tickets and coupons are sold to do that, and we need to estimate how much per person would eat. That was a lot of work. I was worried about the technical unit too, as they need to prepare the multimedia show. The programs unit that had to prepare programs for people to watch and the decoration unit that had to think of how to decorate the whole thing.


            I've learned really a lot during this event. I learned more than Pesta Tanglung. The best idiom to describe this event is "Too many cooks spoil the soup." When you have too many people telling you what to do, it spoils the whole thing. Well, actually the event went great, really thank God for that. I was very happpy, after all the hard work that we had been through. But during the process of making it, rehearsals and all that, we had been through a lot of difficulties and disagreements. Things were rough during that time. That was this once that I nearly cried but I managed to held back. That time was the time where I wanted to just pack my luggage and go back home to celebrate Chinese New Year earlier. Thank God, everything ended up great and I am now sitting on my bed in my home sweet home writing this.


           Honestly, making a big event like this is very difficult, we have some "outsiders" who try to make things difficult for us, we have some people doing some "things" to us, but thank God we managed to solve everything.


          I am very touched with what all my members did. They all sacrificed their precious time and energy for this event. Words could never describe what we have been through. Every units have their own work and difficulties. I can see that. I can see that their are working hard, just that some of the people keep on complaining and telling how much work are they doing and how difficult it is. But some people are doing their difficult job silently.


          Although we faced some disagreements and sometimes we got a bit upset and raised our voice during rehearsals when things didn't go right, I hope everyone understands what is the point of doing this event.


         The main point of making this event, I couldn't tell it here, but the point is not to make us ending up hating each other. We may face disagreements and some tiny quarrels during this event, but after this event, please do not take all that personally, cause that is not the point of making this event at all. Do not let anything that happen in the process of this event to spoil our friendship. Do not take it personally, please forget everything as this event ends.


        So I am sorry to anyone if I have hurt anyone's feelings during this program. I do not mean it. Do not take it personally.


       Thank you everyone who involved in this. I'm really happy to know everyone of them. They are such great and amazing people. This event would never event happen without them, I wouldn't even have the chance to write about this post without them. Everything really went great and we managed to reach our target which is around 600 people! Yay!!! Nothing bad happen. So yeah! Praise the Lord and everyone!

           Thank you for giving me this opportunity to be a director for an event like this and to learn so much. God bless we all.

Before the event starts

At the waiting room with the VVIP

Walking in with the VVIP

VVIP

Giving speech nervously in front of 600 people

Open ceremony~

Lucky draw session

Walking out with the VVIP when the event ends

Time to be crazy after the event~

            So really thank God and everyone for every thing. Wish all of you to have a happy Chinese New Year!!! HUAT AHHH!!!

2011 New Year Resolutions

I know it's kinda late for this, but yeah, I've just finished my New Year resolutions

One of the reasons I'm posting it right here cause I want everyone of you to be my witness

Then I will work extra heart to fulfill these resolutions as everyone knows it

2011 New Year Resolutions

1)Lose weight = 55kg!!!

2) Find out about all religions and decide which to follow

3)CGPA pointer at least = 3.0

4)Self improvement :

-Do not neglect family and friends, be extra caring to them

-Be fair to both Smarties and Snoopy

-Stay calm when there is problem

5)Spend not more than RM350 a month

6)Do not fall for any guy (unless he falls for me,lol)

7)Learn a new word every day~

8)Finish at least one book a week

9)Wake up at least 10am daily

10)Do not online for more than 2 hours a day!

11)Pray and meditate for 15 minutes before sleep

12)Be thankful for every single thing!

13)Follow all these 12 resolutions!

I really want to fulfill these 13 resolutions.

So beloved friends, please be my witness and scold me if I'm not following any!

Thanks!

And what are you guys resolutions?

Have a happy new year and keep improving everyday! :)

Throughout 2010

             If you have been reading my blog,you will know that I have a post entitled "Throughout 2009" writing about things that happen throughout the year 2009. Time flies, with just a blink of an eye, it's 2011(Yeah, I'm exaggerating, it's not just a blink of an eye)! So Happy New Year to all my beloved friends and family! I'm gonna update about things that happen throughout 2010!!! It's just a simple post showing briefly how was my 2010 like without showing any details outing with my friends and family.

           2010 is the year that I've just finished my STPM. I waited for my results to see if I could get into the University. While waiting, I worked in Melati Tuition Centre and home tuition for the daughter of my dad's friend.

My dad's friend's daughter ^^

            January
           1st January 2010
             The very first day of 2010, we had a BBQ party to celebrate for New Year and my mom's birthday! :) Had a great time with my family! It was my very first time to get drunk and did something stupid. Hahaha. But something brilliant happened! All my family would know about what had happen. I'm not gonna write it here. Hahahha...

            7th January

              My beloved uncle Mus passed away. He was admitted to Tanjung Medical Centre few months ago before he passed away due to stroke. I'm not gonna say "May he rests  in peace" cause I know he is resting in peace.

           15th January
            Hooi See, Pucca and me made sushi as if we sell sushi!!! Hahaha!

            21st January
           I went bowling with some ELS students and had dinner at Seoul Garden with them. I made a few great and funny friends! We really had a great time that day!

 

            February

            1st of February

            Started working as a teachers' helper in Penang Chinese Kindergarten! Get to know all those cute little children there! ^^

           Learned how to play billiard. Thanks to the new friend that taught me how to play. Got addicted to pool for a few months since then and wasted my time outings for billiards ~.~

Soho

 

             7th February
             It was one of my good friends' birthday! Monchichi Quah! Celebrated at Seoul Garden and went to Bar 36.

             13th February
             "Sa Chap Meh" with my beloved family at my place!

             14th February
              1st day of Chinese New Year! ^^ 

              18th February
              Play firecrackers with my friends at the beach!

 

             Then, we didn't sleep for the whole night and went to see the sunrise!!!

             
         March
         25th March
         Celebrated Jerrick's birthday at Winter Warmers!

Birthday Boy ^^

         New friends had left my life in March. Just for 2 months and they are gone just like that. Thinking back right now, I kinda miss them although some of them didn't really bring any good ending to me. If you are in the situation with me, you would know what I mean ;)

              April

              19th April 2010

              A really small Phor Tay High School 5PA 2007 Gathering at Seoul Garden and Coffee Island. Hehe!

              May
             13th May
             Celebrated Nini's birthday at Neway and Sabana~

              31st May
              It's the last day for me to work in Penang Chinese Kindergarten. Really miss those cute little children a lot!

           June
          6th June
           Celebrated my aunty's birthday!

I love you all!!!

            18th June
            To know that I get into Universiti Putra Malaysia(UPM). I was really happy until I cried. I couldn't believe I made it! I knew my life was going to change a lot as I'm going to KL!!!

   

          So I had farewells with my beloved family and friends throughout June.

         July
         1st July
         Had a farewell BBQ party with my friends as I'm going to KL on the 3rd.

Really thanks everyone for the special cupcakes~

       
                3rd July
                Paid a visit in ELS and had lunch with some really really old ELS friends!

               4th July
              Orientation week started. Well, I don't have to elaborate again how life sucks in UPM at first. I've been complaining to everyone everywhere everytime. So yeah, that's it. Anyway, I'm facing it positively right now. :)

            10th July to 11th July

            Jasmine came to rescue during my first weekend  in UPM. I ran away from UPM during the orientation weekend.

            12th July

            Classes in UPM started. UPM is really a big place. Felt cool as a University student at first. Did get lost too. Hahaha...

 

  

           

              August

              Been walking and spending time exploring UPM throughout this month.

Hanging out at Time Square with my friends

             August has been a quite homesick month for me. Never missed home this much.

            September

            I was really looking forward to September as I was going back on 3rd.

            7th September

            Beloved friends celebrated my birthday for me and  Juian at RedBox.

              

                8th September

                Another group of friends celebrated birthday for me at Seoul Garden~

             19th September

             Back to UPM again~

Had TomYam Steamboat in hostel ^^

              

            October

            I started going to church with a friend named Paul. I got to know a few good friends and a sharegroup gang named Pilaks. I really thank God for that as all of them are really nice people.

    

               13th August

               We had this Chinese activity in my hostel called Pesta Tanglung which I was the protocol leader. It was a kinda stressful and great experience.

   

            15th to 17th  August

            Jasmine and Monchichi and her mother came to KL for shopping and we hung out.

      

          26th October

          Followed my friend Daniel for this MyFren event which encourage women entrepreneur forum. Got to know some new friends from Indonesia and we hung out around KL! Cool~

            November

           5th November

       Cycling at the Botanical Garden in Cyberjaya with the Pilaks, yeah I know I couldn't cycle,so I was learning okay? Hahaha...

 

           Did some shopping for Chinese New Year with my friends on the 10th and 12th at Timesquare,Low Yat,Lot10,Fahrenheit,Pavillion,The Mines and Sunway Pyramid.

              18th November

              After my last paper of finals, went back to Penang by bus alone happily! First time taking bus alone for such a  long distance.

            After came back to Penang, was busy hanging out with all my beloved family and friends to everywhere around Penang.

           

           25th November

            Interviewed for a part time job at Lighthouse.

           26th to 28th November

           Went Genting with my beloved family~ Special thanks to Ah Nick Kor Kor for everything~

           30th November

          First time in my life ever to kena a saman(fine)!!!! (For parking without putting in coin behind 1 stop aka LG) T.T

          December

          So I started working in Lighthouse and also started my tuition classes. I had a lot of activities with my family and friends too. It was really a busy month. I learned a lot in Lighthouse.

          20th to 23rd December

      Went to a camp named KEJARI organised by my hostel in UPM which I was kinda regret to go. Somehow the regrets are useless, so just let it be. Learned some thing somehow it did not worth the sacrifices.

Just so you know,my mood on the first day during the camp was totally different with my expression in the picture

             24th December

             Merry Christmas...........eve! Had BBQ with my beloved family which I really enjoyed!

                                 (Photos coming soon when my aunty gives me)

            25th December

            Merry Christmas!!!! Went to Jeff's church event at Vistana hostel~

               31st December

                Guess how did I celebrate this day? Working OT in office and overnight at my cousin's house! Haha. I slept quite early as I wanted to go hiking on 1st of January at Pantai Keracut with my family.

              This is how my 2010 went. I didn't write everything out in detail as if I did, I don't know how long this post is gonna be, and I'm really tired right now, it's 2am and I need to get up at 6am.

             It was really a great year and I've learned a lot. Something huge has changed which is I've been away from home to study. 2010 is really the year that I've gained a lot of experience. I really thank God for everything, especially to be in part of this loving family. I really love my family a lot and they are my greatest asset that money can't buy.

             Thank God for everything single thing that I had,and I am having right now. May everyone enjoy their days and God bless everyone of us. Take care everybody!

             Oh yeah~ Finally, my resolution for 2011?

Seriously, I want to be a better person and overcome my weakness as I've found out that I'm a terrible person, so please God,

Heal my heart and make it clean,

Open up my eyes to the things unseen,

Show me how to love like You have loved me.

Also, I want to give up on something. Or someone?

       Peace~