It's time to change skin....

           I'm back in UPM for one week already. I realised I've used a bundle of toilet roll in just one week! My flu is with me for one month already! I wonder when do you want to leave me? Because of you I've wasted so much tissues. You make me a non environmental friendly person! How could you! So I've decided that I will go to the clinic tomorrow. I'm sorry Flu, but I just hate you. I want to get rid of you.

         Anyway, the reason I'm writing this blog is not because I want to talk about flu. I want to talk about myself. Yes, myself, I'm a self-centered person. Hahaaha, just kidding. Okay. It's time to change skin? What kind of title is that? Hahaha. Okay, what I mean is, my old skin which is the old me is dead. I got hurt and crazy until the old me died. I killed my old self. So, now my new skin is the new me.

          I've been wasting a lot of time for the past few days. Wasting a lot of time online, wasting time waiting, wasting time thinking and confusing. I'm sick and tired of me being like this. It's like I have no life at all. That was how I killed my old me.

        So now, for the sake of my health and my hair and my face, I don't want to think so much anymore. (Think so much that I become not healthy, that my hair become grey and my face wrinkled lol)

        Seriously, I've thought of giving up. Because I did not know what to do. I kept thinking that "I'm not good enough, I do not deserve it" Well, I still think so now. But let me give myself a break instead of thinking all this and wasting my time doing all that.

       From now on, I want to be a better person and enjoy my life in my University. They say University life is the best time of your life. But I couldn't feel that now. Why!!!!??? So now it's time to explore instead of suffering in depression. ^^

        So, I have to think positively and take thing easily. Honestly, I don't know what should I do. But whatever worst happens, it's not the end of the world yet right? Yeah, that's it!!! I will leave everything to fate!

          I am not good enough, but still I will continue to be who I am or what I'm comfortable to be like. I will not change myself for someone else unless that someone really worth it, or I will change for the sake of myself. If that person doesn't give a damn about me, then fine. I'm not gonna act like I'm a really nice girl and hope that someone will notice me all of a sudden and come to me. In other words, I don't want to live in a dream.

        But still, deep inside my heart asks my brain "How long will I be waiting?"

        My brain says "I don't know, heart."

        Heart "I doubt if I could go on.... You know, I'm not Celine Dion, her heart will go on, but I don't know about myself."

        Brain "Stop asking already, I want to study Agriculture and Spanish. Tests are coming up. And you, please, stop thinking already, you have a life, you job is to encourage me to study hard."

       A short conversation between my heart and my brain. Hahahaha.

       Good night.

A poem written by me

           Hey guys, currently I'm studying about poems in literature.I can't help to write a poem showing how much I appreciate living in KTP (Kolej Tun Perak) Well, I hope you guys like it. It's the second poem that I've ever written myself.

Warning:

The following poem may content offensive material that may not be appropriate for any authority of KTP. If you happen to be one and you might feel offended, please click on the "X" on your upper right after the beep. Viewer's discretion is advised.

In other words, if you love KTP, go away already.

*BEEEEEP*

Still here? 

Alright I don't want to receive any complains because to me this is just a joke.

Enjoy.

KTP will be a nice place to live,
if all the cats are gonna leave.
And also get the toilet renovated,
before my body get contaminated.
Can't all the cats just get along?
Instead of fighting all night long.
Early morning when I'm dreaming,
still I hear the cats are screaming.
 I just get pain in my head,
When I could hear them in my bed.
Though I'm thankful to get into Uni,
Still I think the hostel is too sucky.
Why can't the authority do something?
Before we all start complaining?
Now I'm here to start wondering,
is this a sad tragedy,
or it's just a comedy?

           So how is it guys? No offence at all please. I did this just to practice my English Literature and try to write a poem. Just another sleepless night. Hahaha...

My 20th Birthday~~~

         Another year has gone. If you view my previous posts, you could see a post about my 19th birthday. I'm no longer 19 now. I'm 20. No longer a teenager.

           First of all, I'd like to thank God for allowing me to have an opportunity to celebrate my birthday with my loved ones. I'm lucky to get to spend time with my loved ones during my birthday and it's an honour.

            Looking back on my previous post about my 19th birthday, I realised time flies. 10th September 2009. I was studying Upper 6 in MBS in Penang. 10th September 2010, yea I'm in Penang now. But I'm studying in UPM in Serdang. Once again, thank God because I'm managed to get into University. My birthday wish for 2009 has came true. Getting into University was my 2009 wish. Thank God my birthday falls on Raya's holiday. So I get to go back to Penang to celebrate with my friends and family :)

         I'd like to thank my parents for everything. Thank you Mum and Dad. Thank you Mum and Dad for raising me up. I will never forget this. 20 years ago of 10th September was my Mum's suffering day and my Dad's worrying day. Then, I was borned! Thank you for who I am today. Thanks to Uncle Bob for the "ang pao" without an "ang pao long" haha.

7th September

         I'd like to thank my friends, Jia Yun, Hui Juian, Camillia and Kitty for the gathering on and celebrating Hui Juian and my birthday. Thank you for treating us Redbox. Also thanks Jia Yun for treating us to eat Lok Lok. Hahahaha...

          Wasn't really a clear and nice picture. We didn't have a good cameraman. Haha jk :P

8th September 

               Thanks to my friends Jasmine,Monchichi,Nini,Cherry and Wen Wei for celebrating my birthday with me at Seoul Garden. Yummy food but I didn't eat much enough. Now I am regret already. I don't get to eat those food in UPM! Why didn't I talk less and eat more that day? Hahahha...

                               See, a piggy ke le fe beside me hahahaha

                                     Never seen a round light before... LOL

   
             Well, that's on 8th September....

             I'd like to thank my UPM friend Yit Fung,for buying me a piece of cake from Secret Recipe. She's the first one to buy me a piece of cake to let me ENJOY in UPM. Thank you very much. Muacks :*

            Thanks to Jeff for the very special present. A box of tea? Now you make me have another problem. Because now I'm keep thinking whether to drink this tea or not. If I drink it, I don't get to keep it. If I don't drink it, it gonna expired in 2013. Hahahaha... Thank you la for buying and carrying this tea all the way from Cameron Highlands. Wow! Hahahha. And now the tea gonna travel all the way to Serdang! What a lucky box of tea! Hahahaa!

              Also, I wanna thanks to all my dear friends and family who wished me on sms and Facebook. YuXi, Michael, Joe ,Ah Lin Kor Kor, Hann, Christine, Jeff Chew,Fanny,Kitty, Gerry, Jia Yun,Teik Huat, Yit Fung, Hui Juain, Wendy Jiji, Sheen Li, Uncle Bob, Nick Kor Kor,Hanif, Nini, Alvin, Yen Mei, Hooi Shan. Well this is for SMS. For Facebook, too many to list, so just thank you everyone. :)

           I am really glad that I get so many people there for me to celebrate for me. I appreciate everything you guys did from everyone. Thank you guys! :)

         Another year has gone. No longer a teenager. Wow. Well, I do have a wish this year. The wish is that.... is that........ Well it's a secret!!!! Let's see next year if my wish came true as my wish came true for last year! Well, I really hope this wish came true.

          Last but not least, I'm 20!!! I will live my life to the fullest! I hope I can learn and see more things and be a much better person. I still have a lot to learn!  Thank you God,Mum and Dad,dear family and beloved friends!

A story of Girl and Boy....

            Girl is happy every time she sees Boy online.

Girl always chat with Boy.

Girl likes Boy.

Boy doesn't know.

Girl is not good enough for Boy.

Boy is nice and kind.

Girl is not a bad girl but she's not as kind as Boy.

Boy likes Lady.

Girl is sad.

Girl doesn't deserve Boy anyway.

Because Boy is too kind for her.

Lady is a perfect person for Boy.

Girl cannot do anything.

Because Boy will never like Girl.

This is the story of Girl and Boy.

In the point of view of Girl.

Home in Penang vs. Hostel in UPM!!!

               Hey guys, as you all know, I'm at home in Penang now. I'm gonna write a blog comparing between home and hostel in UPM.

         
            Let's talk about the room. The hostel room in UPM is not bad actually. We have a quite big study desk, a desk lamp, a bed and a cupboard. Well, everything is kinda old especially the cupboard. At home, I have a study desk, 2 cupboards, a computer table, a dressing table,a bed and 2 small tables. Of course home is much more comfortable. I have to share my room with a roommate in my hostel. So sometimes when she wakes up early and when I'm still in bed, I feel like someone is watching me sleeping. Hahahha.. And sometimes when I wake up early and she's still in bed, I feel like I'm disturbing her.

        The bathroom, this is my favourite thing to comment. Well, at home, I have my bathroom which I can hang my clothes behind my door, I have shampoos,body shampoos, conditional and practically everything inside my bathroom. My bathroom is quite BIG as I could walk around my bathroom. I have water heater too. Well, who doesn't? Except UPM. I didn't realised the fact that my bathroom is big until I go to UPM. In my hostel, when you go inside the bathroom to bathe, you could barely move your body as the bathroom is build as the size of a human only. And you couldn't hang your clothes behind the door as there is no hanger. Everytime you need to bathe, you have to bring all your shampoos, body shampoos to the bathroom. That makes the bathroom even smaller. And they don't have water heater. Imagine bathing with cold water early morning. That's the reason why I don't bathe early morning there. Hahaha. And yet, after you bathe, you have to change your clothes inside the bathroom as you don't want to wrap yourself with towels and walk around back to your room. Even if you could do that, you don't want to change your clothes in front of your roommate right. Imagine changing clothes with your not-so-dry-body inside the human size bathroom. That's kinda.... inconvenient I'd say.

         And the toilet, it's small,old,wet and dirty! At home, I could sit and relax doing my business. In the hostel toilet, I try to do finish everything as fast as I could as I couldn't hold any second longer there! Well it's okay if I just use the toilet once or twice for once a while, like I'm using the public toilets. But now I'm living there. I have to use the toilets like more than 3 times a day!!! It's such a sad case :( Can't they upgrade the toilet already?

         At home, I have 2 dogs named Snoopy and Smarties. In my hostel, I have around 10 cats whom I don't know their names. They meow when they want something, and they growl out loudly when they're fighting,which it happens practically everyday. Sometimes middle of the night when we're sleeping we could hear them fighting with their enemies. Come on,even my dogs don't fight with each other. Can't the cats all get along and at least help to make UPM hostel a better place by NOT making noise? That's not all, sometimes they shit around wherever they like. They shit at the corner outside our room. They shit inside the pantry. They shit inside the bathroom. Imagine early morning you go the bathroom and you smell their shit, or you want to get water from the pantry and you see their shit on the floor. What is thissssssssss!!!?

         Moving on, the FOOD. At home, I eat my mom's cooking, or we go out for hawker's food, or some nice food in shopping malls. In UPM,morning you have breakfast in your room, you have nasi goreng in the afternoon, you have nasi campur at night. The next day, you have nasi goreng again in the afternoon, you have nasi campur again at night. This goes on everyday. Well, at least they have different names for the nasi goreng. Nasi goreng pataya, nasi goreng cina, nasi goreng USA, nasi goreng belacan, and a lot more. Haha... Come on!!! What are those? All of them are nasi goreng which taste practically the same but they have 10 different nasi goreng names. I guess they want us to try them all and make ourselves think that "yesterday I ate nasi goreng USA,today I eat nasi goreng belancan, so I'm not eating the same food everyday." Unfortunately they fail as I feel like I'm eating the same food everyday!!! Yeah, they have Marry Brown here. Let me show you the conversation I have with the waitress.

Me: Bagi saya Towel Burger.

Lady: Towel Burger sudah habis amoi..

Me: Habis? then bagi saya Spicy Chicken Burger.

Lady:Sudah habis juga amoi.

Me: Semua habis? Apa yang ada di sini?

Lady: Chicken burger saja.

Me: Okay,bagi saya chicken burger.

Lady: Single atau combo?

Me:Combo,tapi drinks I mau milo, dan fries I mau curly fries.

Lady: Milo sudah habis, curly fries juga habis.

Me:Okay, bagi saya single.

       Do they even have Marry Brown? What's the point of having Marry Brown when everything sudah habis sudah habis -.-

         At least  I brought along a rice cooker so I could cook some food myself there. At home, I wanna eat eggs, I get from the fridge. I want to have butter, I get from the fridge. In UPM, I don't even have a fridge. I wanna have eggs, I need to take a bus, and walk for 5 mins to buy some eggs, and take a bus back. What's this? Hahaha... Well, I admit it's kinda difficult but I accept that as I could learn how to be independent. Whatever I need, I go and get it myself.So sometimes I cook instant noodles to eat instead of nasi campur and nasi goreng in the food court. Somehow, after I cook, I need to wash my utensil. I hate to go to the dirty pantry to wash them. The pantry is so disgusting. I don't get it. Why the people throw their food around the basin? Why they put their left over around there? They dishes all around the pantry. Even their left over food. They just don't care. The pantry is not a pantry, it smells like a toilet more.

      Alright, moving on, let's talk about laundry. Well, I'm okay with that. I do my laundry using the washing machine. Per load is RM2.50. We can wash 10kg of clothes for the maximum. The problem is, whole block of people sharing 1 or 2 washing machines. We have to line up if there is other people is using. It's okay. Somehow there are some inconsiderable people who just leave their clothes INSIDE the washing machine after using it. They don't bother to take their clothes out. So sometimes when I'd like to wash my clothes, their clothes which is already DONE WASHING is still inside the washing machine. So I have to wait for them. And sometimes the washing machine is not working, sometimes they don't accept your coins. What's this? -.- At home, I can do the laundry whenever I want. And it's clean! The washing machine there doesn't look clean :( After the laundry, I have to bring it up outside my room to dry it. Once, I dried my underwear. A moment later, I found my underwear dropped INSIDE the drain downstairs. And it was a HUSH PUPPY underwear!!! I felt like crying! I was forced to throw my underwear.That was the moment I missed my home the most! Hahaha...

         Alright, so the conclusion is, I miss my home!!! 2 months staying in UPM hostel makes me appreciate my home a lot! So, it's not a total bad thing after all right? I've learned my lesson ^^ So since now I'm home, I make full use of it. Whenever I'm in bathroom or toilet, I enjoy my time there to bathe or do business as I couldn't enjoy it in my hostel. So, I want to tell everyone of you something, 

APPRECIATE YOUR HOME!!!! 

Because there's no cats shitting around your house.

Hahaha.. Take care!