Sunday, July 31, 2011

Just a little reminder...



                I could still remember when I was young, we were poor. We had no car. We had motorcycles and a very old broken van.


              When I was 13, my family managed to buy a second hand car. It was just a Proton Wira. I was so excited. I felt so happy get to sit in a car. Every time I follow my dad to fetch my brother to tuition, just to enjoy sitting in a car. I didn't have to sit the old van anymore.


              Years went by, I went to University. I told my mother the life there is difficult. I had to wait for bus. The weather is so hot, there are a lot of people, I can't stand squeezing around with people in the bus, and it wastes a lot of time to wait for the bus. My uncle came to visit and got a terrible shock that how huge my university is, and how inconvenient to take a bus. My mother loved me so much that she bought a second hand Kancil for me.


              Now, I'm working in kindergarten. I see a lot of lucky kids. They were just as young as 2 and they get to sit in a Honda. How lucky, I thought. I was 13 and felt so excited to sit in a Proton Wira. How stupid was I.


            When I was in University, I admire those who have cars to drive around when I have to sit in bus, they don't have to wait for bus under the hot son. When I couldn't catch a bus, and I walked back to my hostel, then I admire those who get to sit in bus, they don't have to walk. Now even I admire 2 years old kid get to sit in a Honda...


            Come to think of it, I realized one important thing, I've been using too much time to admire people until I've forgotten what have I got. I've got a pair of legs that I could walk everywhere I want. At least I could walk back to hostel when there is no bus. What about those who are cripple? Will they get to walk like I could? Why was I so blind? I supposed to thank God for what I've got. I may be poor, that my family couldn't own big cars or house, but my parents love me very much. That's what matters the most.




            So friends, a simple reminder of this blog for you all and myself is, be grateful for what we have. Stop comparing yourself with others. =)

Monday, July 4, 2011

            She has never waste a single thing in her life. She saves every single penny that she could. Her husband is a gambler and he has never given her a single cent. She has two children to raise. She works hard and she has never enjoy a single day in her life.


            She goes to the supermarket to shop for the cheapest ingredient she could get to cook meals for the family. She thinks twice before she buys anything. She works 24/7 to raise the family. She loves her children very much.


            Finally, her children have grown up. She thought the hard moment has finally over. But her children take her for granted. They do not have any proper job and never give her any money. To make the matter worse, they even ask money from her.


           Now that she is old, she still have to work hard for her all grown up children. She works hard and works hard and works hard, every hard work single penny that she saves is spent on her children. But,they smoke,drink and enjoy every single day like nobody's business.


          She couldn't do anything. She loves them too much. She doesn't scold them at all. She thinks everything she is doing is worth it. She has been taking care of them for her entire life. 


          The children show to respect to her. She is like a slave to them. They would scold her for some minor mistakes she does. She just keep silent.


           She tells nobody. She lies to her relatives. Telling people how great her children are, how great her life is. But people are not blind, they could see how is her life like. She feels ashamed about her life, so she chooses to lie and brag to people. People feel pity for her, yet they hate her for the lies and nonsense. She is making a nuisance of herself. People just dislike her. They just never try to understand what she is going through.


           Can anyone understand how does it feel for one to live in miserable days in life and pretend that everything is alright, and lie to everyone that how great her life is, just to hide her sorrow?




           Sometimes in the middle of the night, I think of her. I am no longer a child to be so naive to believe what she tells me. I've realized all the lies she tells. Now, I can see the sorrow in her eyes even she is smiling. But no matter what happens, no matter what has she done, how she lies to me, I will always love her. I will be there for her, because she has always been there with me when I was young. She is the third of the most important person is my life. When I'm all grown up and have a steady job and life, I will give her a better life.


              Please wait for me....


              This song is specially dedicated to her...







                 "Light up, light up,
                  As if you have a choice,
                  Even if you cannot hear my voice,
                  I'll be right beside you dear...


                    Louder,louder,
                    And we'll run for our lives,
                    I can hardly speak I understand,
                    Why you can't raise your voice to say..."
             

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Kids...

           Dear friends, it's been a while now since the last time i updated my blog.


           It's semester break again, in fact, it has been 2 months of break already. I'm currently working part time as a teacher in a kindergarten named Krista located in Tg. Tokong in the morning and Penang Chinese Kindergarten teaching standard 3 in the afternoon.


           Well, since I've exposed so much with kids, I'd like to share with you about my opinions about kids.


            Since I've been working in Krista kindergarten, I've seen and exposed with a few kinds of kids and parents.


            Looking at some cute kids, I really couldn't resist myself, I feel like having kids of my own. I know it's crazy and impossible right now. haha. But look at them, the way they call you, wave at you and hug you, their smiles and actions, when their small bodies run to you and hug you, when your big arms wrap against their small little bodies, how could you not love them? This is the first time I'm really exposed with 2 to 4 years old kids this close. They're so tiny and cute. Well, I'm not teaching them, I teach Kindergarten 1 & 2, but I do spend time with the nursery kids too. When I see them learning how to talk, learning new words and actions, they're just too cute.. 


            Just the moment I wonder how would my life be like in the future if I have children of my own, I see those kids being naughty and annoying.


            Kids may be cute, but raising a kid is not easy all. It's like a long term investment. Remind yourself about changing diapers and waking up in the middle of the night when they are crying, taking care of them to make sure they are healthy, give them good education. Plan to have a kid only if you can give your kid a good life.


            It's a fact that cannot be denied that parents nowadays have spoiled their kids. I could still remember the days when I was young. When I was being naughty, my mum would cane me, and when I was crying, she told me "Enough, I don't want to hear your sobbing any more, QUIET." I couldn't even sob when I cry. If I wouldn't stop, she would ask me to stand at the corner. That was how she punished me. I used to afraid of her a lot. Dad was the one to save me whenever I was in trouble. When I was punished by my mum, he would come and console me, try to joke with me to make me happy. I always bullied him, I would beat him and cry even louder, and all he did was smile and try to kiss me, and I would beat him and pushed him away cause I didn't want him to kiss me. I could still remember there is this once I was punished to stay at the corner, and my dad was playing keyboard to cheer me up, I was crying and stubborn enough to close both my ears, as I didn't want to listen to his music. Hahaha..


           Ahh.... Those memories, how I always get punished by my mum and bullied my dad... Oh well, time flies. But now, what I see is, there are a few parents who love their kids too much. They no longer punish their kids anymore. They love their kids way too much until they didn't realise they have spoil them. I do not want to say what did they do, but if I were to do what their kids did, I think I would get a punch in the face by my mum. Hahaa. Oh well, I could just see, and remind myself not to spoil my kids in the future. I think it's a difficult thing to do. When you have a kid of your own, you tend to be too excited to see he or she learn to talk and walk and call Mummy, and you will love him or her too much, and it's just too painful to punish him or her. But, I seriously have to remember to be a strict mother for the sake of my future children.


           Parents nowadays come to school when they hear their children complain that teacher pull their ears or punish them for doing something wrong. What have the world become? How can parents still protect their children when their children are the one did something wrong? Well, I'm still wondering.


           So my dear friends, spare the rod and spoil the child, this is a true phrase. Generations now have changed, they love their children too much until they have spoiled them, but for the sake of the lives of our children, we cannot spoil our children. Punish them when they do something wrong if you really love them.


          Family background is way too important for a child. I realised this too when I'm teaching Krista Kindergarten. I have one 5 years old and 6 years old student who couldn't recognise alphabets and numbers. I've been teaching them for like 1000 times and yet they could forget that F is F, M is M, H is H and so on. I seriously do not know what to do. I'm trying my best to help them. But even they themselves don't want to help themselves. I seriously do not know what to do. I can just continue to repeat and repeat and hope that one day they can tell me that M is M without me telling them that it is an M.


         The point is, you have to teach your kids at home too if you hope them to achieve well in academics, don't just rely everything on kindergartens, cause your kids are here for like 5 hours a day, they spend most of the time with the parents. Parents, teach your children well....


        Well, I hope this post is not offensive. Just sharing =)