Semester break!

             Hey guys! By looking at the title, you guys should know that what this post is about! Yes! Every students' favourite! Semester break!!!

            First of all, I'd like to thank God for the safe trip back to Penang. I've been missing my beloved family and friends and EVERYTHING in Penang a lot when I was in UPM. I know it's crazy but I actually thought that I might lose them. Now I'm home comfortably with them and I'm so glad!

         They say you have to lose something to appreciate it which I totally agree. Before I left this home, I didn't know this home was so comfortable and didn't appreciate my home until I live in UPM.

         Does time fly? Yes, it does! It's semester break already. When I was studying, I was like "Can't the holiday come already? Why am I still here?" But, weeks after weeks, then I realised I'm coming back already! It feels great!

        I have this semester break until 2nd of January. But I have to go for a camp named KEJARI organised by my hostel on 20th until 23rd of December. I pray that I will have a safe trip and be able to come back to celebrate Christmas! :)

        This holiday is very long! I have to make full use of it! There is so many things that I want to do. Anyway, dear beloved family and friends, please ask me out to catch up with you! I can't wait to hang out with all my family and friends!

       During this first semester, I've learned a lot of things and I'm so glad of that. I am not regret to make my choice to study far away from home. Although I missed home a lot and cried about it a few times, but this is a good experience for me that I don't learn in textbook.

         University, in Chinese (大学), I totally agree with it. We LEARN BIG there. Hahaha. We learn a lot of things there. Not only academics, but also soft skills and how to be independent. I've met a lot of new friends and nice people which I'm so glad. I've learn how to communicate with people and do a groupwork with people. And I'm on the process on learning how to lead people and give a speech on stage. I've learned how to survive without my family with me.

         When I wake up everyday, there is no lunch on the table.
         When I want to wash my clothes, the washing machine is not 10 steps away from me, but I have to walk to another block to wash my clothes.
         When I want to eat home cook or nice hawker food, I can go to sleep and try to dream that I am eating it, cause it's totally not available in UPM.
         When I want to go to some place, or just to photocopy a few piece of papers, I need to wait for the bus to go and back, which takes my time around 2 hours for something that can be done in 15 minutes if I have a car there.
        When I want to enjoy a long showering from a hot and tiring day, there is no water heater and the bathroom is very old,small,dirty and smelly.
        When I want to do facial and have a haircut, I couldn't as there is too expensive.

           All of these sound terrible, I thought it was the end of my life already. I used to complain a lot. But thank God, I've learned the most valuable lesson, that is I've been blessed everyday. The environment is not as good as home, but at least I was still alive every single day and I could survived. At least I have a few amazing gifts from God, which is my new friends in the University and FCC Chuch and Sharegroup, and my family who cares and concerns about me. A few calls from friends and family from hometown from day to day makes me so happy and touched. I may have lost some comfortable time at home, but I've gained knowledge and experience and gifts. Sometimes when we are just too comfortable, we tend to forget how lucky we are. I realised that the life there is not bad, because in some part around the world, there are people suffering, dying from hunger and illness, or natural disaster, or some crimes committed on them.

           Some people used to ask me "Why you choose UPM? So far away! Choose UUM lah! It's near to Penang la! You can come back every weekend you want! No need to suffer there so long lor!"

         At first I thought they were right, but now I do not think so. I have no regrets at all. I might not learn what I've learned today if I was not studying in UPM. So next time I will send my kids far away from home when they are 20 years old. Lol.

         In conclusion, I'd like to say/sing,

        Light of the world,

        You stepped down into darkness,

        Open my eyes let me see~

        You're altogether lovely, altogether worthy,

        Altogether wonderful to me.

        Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades,

        Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame.

        Call upon the Name of the Lord and be saved~

        Thank you God for every single thing and wake me up to the reality through the dream.

        And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise from the inside out of my soul cries out!!!

        

A gift from God

           2nd of October, I followed a friend of mine named Paul Tan to church. If you ask me "Why you go to church? You are a Christian meh?"  Okay, no, I'm not a Christian. I went to church because I wanted to have a look. I wanted to see what they do. Not that I don't know. I went to church before,but still I want to go. I didn't really know why I go, I just went.

          Honestly, that night after going to church, I felt that I'm a bad person. I don't know why. I just feel that I'm not a good person like the people in the church. I felt so left out. I cannot feel what they feel. The people are so nice and friendly. I feel I'm a bad person compared to them. The week after that I didn't go as I went to Sunway Pyramid. And another week after that I didn't go cause my friends visited me. And the week after that I didn't go again for I-don't-know-what-reason. 

          But since that message in the dream, if you guys read my previous post, you will know what dream. I have a feeling that I need to do something. I need to thank God for every single day and every single thing that I have. I've been blessed with such amazing things all this while and I didn't know it. How ignorant was I. After 27 days, 29th of October I went to a sharegroup with Paul. I met a lot of new people. 30th of October I went to church again. From then, I join them to church and sharegroup.


          If now you ask me "Why you go to church? You are a Christian meh?" the first part of the answer is still the name, No, sorry I'm not a Christian, but now I go to church not because I want to look around what people do there, because I want to thank God for what I have! I feel so bad that I was so ignorant all this while. I've got all the nice thing and yet I didn't realised and kept complaining. Thank God I realised my mistake. I go to church to thank and worship God. I go to church to pray for myself,my family and friends and all the people who are suffering in the world. I pray for peace. That's the reason.

         I mix with the sharegroup friends who called themselves as "Pilaks". I know a lot of nice and caring people there. We have the leader named Richard Lam and one of the drivers who always fetch us, his name is Chew. They all are really nice people and like a wonderful family. They welcomed me and treat me very nice. I feel so touched and thankful to be part of them. They are so caring and friendly.

        One of the person that I most admire is Chew. He makes big sacrifice to fetch us to church. Every Saturdays, to fetch us from church, he drives his car all the way from his university which is UNITEN to the church which is located in Sunway to get the van from church, which is 30 minutes distance, and come back to UPM,UKM, UCSI and other places as well to fetch the students to the church, which is another 30 minutes distance, and fetch us back, which is another 30 minutes distance and go to the church to get his car and go back to his university which is another 30 minutes distance. By the time he got back,it's late at night already. He pays the petrol and tol fees himself. He never allow us to pay. I feel so touched of his sacrifice. He said he did this for God.

          Since I came to UPM, I felt lonely sometimes. I felt that my life here was miserable here at first. I kept complaining about everything. But since that dream and since I met them, I feel life is so wonderful. I am so happy that I'm part of them. They are such happy people. They organise activity every week and I've been joining them for 2 weeks. I hope I can join them more but I'm going back to Penang this Thursday. I look forward to meet them next semester. They are such nice and caring people.

          I accept this as a wonderful gift from God. Though I am lonely sometimes cause I miss my family in Penang, but it's great that I meet such caring people. Thank God for this wonderful gift.

         Somehow there is something I feel I'm imperfect compared to them. I can't do it yet. I do not know about the future. I need some time. Please give me some time. I still need to do some survey and get some results.


Once again, thank you God for every single thing.