A gift from God

           2nd of October, I followed a friend of mine named Paul Tan to church. If you ask me "Why you go to church? You are a Christian meh?"  Okay, no, I'm not a Christian. I went to church because I wanted to have a look. I wanted to see what they do. Not that I don't know. I went to church before,but still I want to go. I didn't really know why I go, I just went.

          Honestly, that night after going to church, I felt that I'm a bad person. I don't know why. I just feel that I'm not a good person like the people in the church. I felt so left out. I cannot feel what they feel. The people are so nice and friendly. I feel I'm a bad person compared to them. The week after that I didn't go as I went to Sunway Pyramid. And another week after that I didn't go cause my friends visited me. And the week after that I didn't go again for I-don't-know-what-reason. 

          But since that message in the dream, if you guys read my previous post, you will know what dream. I have a feeling that I need to do something. I need to thank God for every single day and every single thing that I have. I've been blessed with such amazing things all this while and I didn't know it. How ignorant was I. After 27 days, 29th of October I went to a sharegroup with Paul. I met a lot of new people. 30th of October I went to church again. From then, I join them to church and sharegroup.


          If now you ask me "Why you go to church? You are a Christian meh?" the first part of the answer is still the name, No, sorry I'm not a Christian, but now I go to church not because I want to look around what people do there, because I want to thank God for what I have! I feel so bad that I was so ignorant all this while. I've got all the nice thing and yet I didn't realised and kept complaining. Thank God I realised my mistake. I go to church to thank and worship God. I go to church to pray for myself,my family and friends and all the people who are suffering in the world. I pray for peace. That's the reason.

         I mix with the sharegroup friends who called themselves as "Pilaks". I know a lot of nice and caring people there. We have the leader named Richard Lam and one of the drivers who always fetch us, his name is Chew. They all are really nice people and like a wonderful family. They welcomed me and treat me very nice. I feel so touched and thankful to be part of them. They are so caring and friendly.

        One of the person that I most admire is Chew. He makes big sacrifice to fetch us to church. Every Saturdays, to fetch us from church, he drives his car all the way from his university which is UNITEN to the church which is located in Sunway to get the van from church, which is 30 minutes distance, and come back to UPM,UKM, UCSI and other places as well to fetch the students to the church, which is another 30 minutes distance, and fetch us back, which is another 30 minutes distance and go to the church to get his car and go back to his university which is another 30 minutes distance. By the time he got back,it's late at night already. He pays the petrol and tol fees himself. He never allow us to pay. I feel so touched of his sacrifice. He said he did this for God.

          Since I came to UPM, I felt lonely sometimes. I felt that my life here was miserable here at first. I kept complaining about everything. But since that dream and since I met them, I feel life is so wonderful. I am so happy that I'm part of them. They are such happy people. They organise activity every week and I've been joining them for 2 weeks. I hope I can join them more but I'm going back to Penang this Thursday. I look forward to meet them next semester. They are such nice and caring people.

          I accept this as a wonderful gift from God. Though I am lonely sometimes cause I miss my family in Penang, but it's great that I meet such caring people. Thank God for this wonderful gift.

         Somehow there is something I feel I'm imperfect compared to them. I can't do it yet. I do not know about the future. I need some time. Please give me some time. I still need to do some survey and get some results.


Once again, thank you God for every single thing.