I'd like to talk about something and ask you guys a question.
So yesterday afternoon, I was having a headache. I don't know why. So I took a nap. I had a dream. It was a nightmare.
I dreamed that my friend's cousin, he fetched us to a shopping mall. So there were 2 friend of mine,him as the driver and me. He was driving like crazy and speeding. I was quite afraid. Somehow, we reached the shopping mall, we were looking for a parking lot in the car park. But it was a very weird car park. It's a very dangerous place which I cannot describe to you without showing it with my hands,lol, so cut the story short, we had an accident. It was very horrible, the whole car was like falling down from floors to floors, and this freaking dream was very real. I thought it was real, cause it really seems to be. I was very afraid, I thought I was going to die, I knew my life was going to end in like 5 seconds, I was crying. I prayed to God, I said "Please God, please save me, I really don't want to die yet, I haven't seen my parents for a long time already, I want to tell them I love them." I really was crying and praying so hard. It was a horrible dream.
And all of a sudden, the whole car stopped, and we were all okay, the car just got crashed a little bit. That's all, all of us were very afraid except for my friend's cousin. He said "Fnally, we found a parking lot, let's go." and he opened the door and got out. Everything seemed to be normal already. But the accident did happen. When I got out from the car, I was thinking "I really need to run away from this gang of people, they all are crazy especially the crazy driver." and then I woke up. I realised that it was all a dream.
My point of this post is not to tell you about this dream or I am weird to have this dream. I know this is a crazy dream. But, the point is, have you ever thought of what are you going to do if you have 5 seconds left in your life? Don't get me wrong, I'm not cursing anyone of you. Seriously, I have never thought about that until I was having this dream. And honestly, I don't want to die yet. It was so scary,I admit that I'm afraid of death, also yes, I admit, when I have a serious problem like I'm going to die, then only I pray to God. I know I am selfish and bad. It's like a student who always skip classes and run to the lecturer on the day before the test. If I have this short time to live, what am I going to do? What if the dream is real? It's like 5 seconds only, I don't even have enough time to think of what can I do. I don't even have enough time to call my parents. This might happen, I mean, what if I just write this blog and die all of a sudden? Or I couldn't even finish writing it. It's not an impossible thing. We can predict but we can't control what is going to happen. For example, we can predict or plan that next Saturday I want to go out with my friends, but anything might happen to make the plan fail.
I still have a lot of things that I have not achieve yet. One of the most important thing is like what I said in the dream, my parents. I really miss them a lot. Since I'm not staying at home anymore, I realised how much I miss them. One of the main reasons I'm feeling home sick is because of them. I really miss the time they are around me. I never know I love them so much until I'm away from them. In fact, I really miss them now. I seriously want to go back to Penang yesterday, but no one could go back with me. I didn't want to take the risk to go back alone.
What if my life has just 5 seconds left? What must I do? Do I have anything to regret? The answer is yes. I must let my parents know I love them.That is one of the most important thing. Still I have other things more. I didn't realised that until I dreamed of that dream. Is that the message that the dream wants to send to me? That feeling was terrible, when you haven't got the chance to do something that is really important and you are going to leave this place forever and you don't get to do it.
I know this is impossible, but I really hope that I close my eyes to sleep and I wake up, I'm already home. So,the conclusion is, Thank you God, I might get this wrong, but I know what am I supposed to do now so that if in case anything happen, I live with no regrets. I get the lesson from this dream.
So dearly beloved friends, I really don't mean to curse anyone, but have you all thought, if all of a sudden, some accident happen like my dream, that you don't even have enough time to think of what are you supposed to do, do you have any regrets? How is your life so far? If you are about to be gone, have you done what are you supposed to do? Anything important do you wanna do? Or anything to achieve? Anything to tell anyone? Any misunderstanding between you and your friends or family members that you haven't get it settled? I'm not asking you what you regret in your life,not like "I regret that I didn't study hard enough to get straight A's during my SPM" No. These kind of regrets are useless because we couldn't turn back time. But we couldn't set our own time either. It is set for us. If it is set for us in 5 seconds or 5 minutes, what would you do? What are the things that will make you regret IF you don't do it now and you don't get to do it when you have 5 seconds left If you haven't do anything that is very important for you to do, please do it. Because we don't know what is going to happen.
I know some of you might be thinking "Sherri has gone crazy!" or "What nonsense are you talking?" or " You studying in UPM until you crazy liao izzit?" or "What a ridiculous post! You wasted my 5 mins to read it!! GIVE ME BACK MY 5 MINS of my LIFE!!!" I'm sorry I can't. This is what I'm thinking right now. And I just want to share it. I hope dear friends get my point. Take care and do whatever you want to do it so that you won't feel any regret.
I think i got your point and thank you for posting it ^_^
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